ahz. hahas. a post no one will ever get to read.. hahas.. a secret.. that's no one is supposed to understand nor know =)

>.<

hmm.. so far im having a lot of painful times..
trying super hard nt to take any painkiller..

i nv told anyone.. only i myself know im in such kind of pain

i duno by when i might get over it. or will i lose my breathe over this pain.

i really am wondering why my body feels like this in the chest.

no one knows whats going on with me inside..

i hope i can hold till i get better..
i'll still hope to get to see dear smile as long as possible.

hahas.. she's my painkiller after all!! >.<

today's amt of painful atks. its so much.. im nt knowing whats the number count anymore liao. >.>

dear ahz. i'll love u de same always. =x